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I am a grain, only a grain. We are all grains of sand on a vast and lonely beach. We scream “notice me”.

Some grains want to write. They have a simple goal – excellent writing.

I am a different grain. For this grain, writing is a means, not an end. I must write well to achieve my goal – a goal that I doubt other writers share.

This book is a flowerbed of pessimism, full of seeds of optimism.

What is this book about? What is its genre – fiction, nonfiction, creative writing, mystery, or some strange mixture? I think of it as primarily nonfiction, but speculative. I speculate “who and what would I have been if different things had happened to me”? I speculate “what made me who I am”? I ask “what is this world I find myself in”? These speculations are part of everything I write – everything I think.

I have tried to think “outside the box” while keeping at least one foot in the box. This foot keeps me tied to our reality, our universe, as I look around, searching for support for my unusual thoughts.

This book is about the power of thought. Einstein imagined what it would be like if he were riding a beam of light. This thought experiment lead to the theory of relativity. Einstein changed the world. Maybe all of us are capable of even more sophisticated, in depth, revolutionary thought experiments. This book seeks to encourage this kind of thinking.

I want this book, however, to do much more. I want it to encourage revolutionary discoveries and to make life more fair.

People want to write about what they consider important.

I have thought a great deal about this. How do our minds, on a cellular level, decide something is important. When, how, and why do we decide something that we once thought was critical is now irrelevant? Our worldview and what we think is important can change. In some sense, what we write today may reflect a different person than what we wrote even a short time ago. To help convey this, I will resisted changing what I write in earlier chapters, instead adding new thoughts with possible observations about why I have changed my views.


One strange thing about this book is I don't think of it as having an end. We can always think more about any subject, look at it from a different angle. I would only like to reach a point where there is a logical pause. I am desperate to reach this logical pause. I fear that one day my reasons for writing will suddenly be unimportant.

Even if we are all unique, there may be common traits that we all share. Perhaps, we all want to be important. Perhaps,we all want to feel important. Yet we are unique - if we had to list, in order of importance, from most to least, one hundred things, ideas, or values, I doubt if any two people in the world would produce identical lists.

I can feel important if I can think of thoughts or ideas that no one has thought of before (by this I mean what I and a lot of other people would consider a substantial thought - not silly thoughts like "Would George Washington have become President if he had had Rudolph the Reindeer's bright and shiny nose?").

My task is made more difficult by the fact that billions of thoughts are created every second. A thought would have to be weird or strange to have a chance at being unique. A thought could, however, be almost completely false or based on facts that are not true and still qualify if it contained a small kernel of truth.

This book is an attempt to find unique thoughts. If I find only one, I will feel successful. Even if I fail, however, this book may still be the only place to find discussions of a number of rarely expressed thoughts and theories about Life and Reality.

My musings on the history of life may have revealed when and how thinking was invented.

My musings on time, gravity, and advanced physics may have revealed the nature of all reality.

This book discusses multiple scientific disciplines and attempts to relate current, accepted views of most professional scientists. My purpose, however, is not to teach, not to write another popular science book. It is to support unique thoughts and findings.

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